I went to my first AA meeting 6th April 1991  and I've kept coming back since and with the help of AA & my Higher Power I have not had a drink a day at a time.  I did not drink every day but I needed to drink at weekends to keep me sane to help release the madness in my head. I drank mainly in pubs but I remember  thinking if I keep drinking I ll have to drink at home.  I did not like being drunk in public (my pride). I could no longer keep up the pretense of being ok when internally I was cracking up.  At the end I was suicidal & afraid to die in case I went somewhere worse.  Thanks to prayers & my Higher power I found AA and got a fellowship  & a program for living.

Regards
Noreen